Nesmith is a fascinating guy who seemed to waffle between wanting to escape forces that he knew were evil and allowing himself to be fully beguiled by them. I remember hearing that he and his wife (both were from military families) were both involved in the occult ... then they both "escaped" and left black magick behind. They even named their newborn son "Christian". But then he left his wife and kid and married Kathryn who was likely a fully initiated witch! The guy couldn't seem to stay completely away from the dark side.